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With a new album out and a slot on The Serpent’s Lair Stage at Bloodstock 2026, N0trixx speaks to aAh! about her life with dissociative identity disorder, making an appearance at Bloodstock, and her love of Nu-Metal. 

So, this is your first time at Bloodstock, how have you found it so far?

Amazing. Exciting. Overwhelming

We caught your set yesterday and it was, in the best way possible, terrifying! Where does the inspiration for the set and show come from?

The Prodigy. I grew up listening to them and, back home in Russia, where I grew up, I saw Keith Flint live and I was just mesmerised by how he manages to capture the audience and make everybody move. When you manage to lose it all and share your energy on stage, that is so liberating, so freeing and so helpful for your mental health. I want to do that for the people who listen to my music.

During your set, you were very open and candid about your struggles with mental health, and said one side of you was a musician and the other half a producer?

No, no, no [chuckles]. I said one half of me is a musician/producer, and the other half is nothing even close to this.

Ahhh, okay! 

She’s an investment banker

Okay, so when you’re on stage, do you feel like the part of you that is a musician is more in control?

When you have different dominating identities within your brain, it comes from trauma and is designed to protect you. And basically, in my case, I’m very lucky that there’s just two of us and it’s easier to manage. And this alter that I am in most of the time these days is a musician, but I have spent a lot of my life suppressed by my other side. I can’t put into words how liberating it feels.

You play a lot of underground venues. What would be the dream? If you could play any festival or venue, what would it be?

Honestly, I’m just working hard to just get somewhere. I am ambitious, but I just want to do my job well. It can be here; it can be anywhere. I’m happy playing just for three people as long as they enjoy it. I’m also happy to play arenas and share my experiences with more people. Anything goes. Just as long as people are enjoying this and enjoying themselves and actually moving with me.

I’m working hard on making this portrait grow and reach more people and touch more hearts. But you never know!

You play more Hardcore and Alternative Metal, but what would you describe your music as?

I do use the term Alternative Metal to describe because most of our music is heavily influenced by metal. I am a nu-metal kid; I have been for over 20 years. So, this is not only my legacy, but my inspiration, but also at the same time, I don’t like being limited by just one genre. I produce my music myself, so I can do whatever I want essentially. I want to write about mental health, and all mental health issues are different. I can’t describe, like, let’s say, ADHD without going from genre to genre. I need more space for words, one of my songs is about narcissistic abuse, and I felt rap fitted it better as a genre and would describe it better. So, it’s just a mixture of everything. I sometimes call it Bedlam music.

That’s clever.

You said earlier that you were a Nu-Metal kid, is that where your main influences come from? Is that where your passion for music originated?

Yeah, I mean, my favourites were Korn, System of a Down, Slipknot; those were the ones that I listened to the most. I would say I draw a lot of inspiration from them, as well as blending other genres in.

And I can’t speak to you without mentioning your stage outfits. Where did the inspiration for that come from?

Oh, I really love post-apocalyptic games and movies and so I usually for all of my outfits, I try to draw inspiration from there. I just screenshot characters and try to come up with something like that.

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